Horses of courses!

Ok anyone who keeps up with me !!! I'm SORRY!!!!!! I know i've been a toatal ass!! and havern't updated but ya know ...Scince we've moved to fuckin IOWA!!!
I hate my life ECT ...However!

blah blah my life had succked scince i've been here ...again blah blah ....!!!
But check this out!!!

I'm gonna jump to about a month ago , just because it's the only thing i really got going good for me at the moment !
This is Mason ..."Pics below" or above lol!
Me and a friend of our's *Raver Rabbit * were screwin around outside and a weird noise got our attention ...Well we went to investigate up in the big barn loft finnally we found the sound ...We looked down the hole and top pic is what we saw ....so instantly we both thought she got stuck down the wall looking for a place to have the babies ...
So us "Rescue Rangers* skill sawed a hole in the wall so she could get out ...Well frikin duh ....Ya know somethin ....Raccoons can scale walls !
Well because we disrupted the nest she booted ! ...And in turn moved everyone ...Except you guessed it Mason!
So after a day and a 1/2 of waiting to see if she would come back ...I felt horrible and took the little critter in and then started my research!! Damm ya know there's alot to learn about these SOB'S!
This was day one that we got him Eyes wide SHUT and Hungry! And OMG LOUD!!!
So we went out and got KMR "Kitten milk replacer" then I was trying with those stupid little kitten bottle oh no that was not Key so Duncan picked up a regular baby bottle that night and after a couple fights and making the formula just right we got latch on! Wow whatta pig! LOL now here we are about a month later !
here's a couple of now now ...This one I am not squeezing the poor thing lol this is him bitchin cause i took my Thumb back ! We are now starting to get TEETH!This is after lunch , hence the booda belly LOL!Bye bye !!!!
Ok I will be back on a little more often to bitch about life ect lol other than that I miss you all!!!!
Coon Hug's to all!
Hug's
Clover

Guess what I did last night !!!
I took a SHOWER!!!!WOOOOOOOOOOO
Can ya belive it :)
Oooohooohooo AND the horses are home !!! .....There's so much more but I gotta go to stupid work :( 
Miss everyone sooooooooooooooooooooo much !!! I'm so josin for a furrie out here !
If anyone know's anyone in Iowa ship'em my way 
Hugs*
Clover

 That cows are the most stupid animal ever created ! 

"If I wanted to get shit and pissed on all day long I would have went into porn"!

My hostility is comming from a 12 hour shift :)

Love clover

But I do like this access to a computer thing at work :) hhehehehehehe .....

So ya yesterday was lame ..to much family I didn't know ..the food was weired ..and WTF I had to work at 8 at night blah !

Same here tonight but whatever squeeze the titties and then go home ...Were stayin at the big house tonight but that sucks too ..
I was all excited when we had water ..Well ya the didn't last long grrrrr...Raw sewage on the basement floor ..Now that's sexy! 

Speakin of bathroom though....Almost done painting Weeee I can't wait to see the outcome of that ...Then tommorow we pick up sheetrock for the stairway ..Then I think we'll paint the hallway ..But who know's ..
1 room almost down 4 to go! 
Ok my partner in crime just showed up talk to ya all soon 
Luv ya
Clover :)

Hi All!!!


Big hug's and furrie scritches to everyone!!! God I miss you all soooooooooooo much!
Iowa is treating us ok ") 
We got the heat turned on in the big house and the water is now runnin as well as the TOLIET works OMG I never thought I would appriciate a shitter so much!

I've gone threw about 6 job;s scince i've been here and now have stuck with ...ya LOL Milkin cow's LMAO~ it's fun it's quick and it pay's good :)
 So hopefully by the grace of god we will be able to get out next year for FF and do a couple out east visits ! 
And anyone travelin out this way lol is more than welcome to crash!
This is a quickie cause i'm outside stealin internet lol so I gotta run:)
Gotta go b-day shoppin Neven's gonna be SIX!! on friday can ya belive it ! 
that and i'm on my way to prime the bathroom god I can't wait to get paint on the wall's !!!

I love and miss you all 
Luv Clover:)

I love Iowa...ya  know what I just did!!!!

Yup me and Crimson are in fuckin IOWA!!
It's redicuous but we are here ! 

I know it's been awhile scince i've been on but after my mother sabatoged everything it took me a bit to get back on ! That and i'm on fuckin dial up!AHHHHHH i'm stuck in the damm twilight zone !
I know Crimson sent out a post on not to respond to anything from me ...but this is really me ..however if you still don't feel comfy E-mail him and he'll give you my new address :)

It's real nice out here ..kinda hickish ..but i'll get used to it lol!
I got a job already! I start wensday ! wee !

And of course there are plenty cornfields out here that I can fuck my horse in *Wink Wink * for those of you that know the whole story will get that one !
ok dial -up is stupid slow ..so i'm gonna go bang my head against a wall and go to bed !
I love you all and miss you all 
Crimson sends his love as well !
Night ! 
Clover:)

Hydroco/apap ...should be enough right .....7.5 Mg ...

1. How old will you be in 12 months?
ugh...32

2. Do you think you'll be married by then?
Only if I win the lottery!

3. What do you look forward to most in the next 3 months?
Furfright!! LOL!

4. Who was the last person you called?
Duncan

5. Who was the last person to call you?
Duncan

6. Who was the last person to text you?
Like im ?... Equin

7. sex, sxe, exs, esx, xse, xes?
its still sex no mattter what..... Does this mean I'm suppose to be gettin it?

8. What were you doing at 12am last night?
Having a cocktail :)

9. Parents seperated/divorced/married?
DIVORCED

10. When was the last time you saw your dad?
Bio...yr ago , Adoptive...7months , Step...This afternoon

11. What happened at 11:00a.m.?
I was Lunging my 1yr old horse :)

12. How many states have you visited?
8

14. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
barefoot

15. Are you a social person?
YEP

16. What was the last thing you ate?
Taco's

17. Favorite ice cream?
Pinnapple ..somthing or other ..discontinued from Ben and Jerry's

18. What is your favorite dessert?
Kaluha cake ..Only made by Auntie Karen!

20. What kind of jelly do you like on your peanut butter
Umm jelly jelly ..Grape I guess :)

21. Do you like coffee?
Ya , then lattes, then coolata's ..then nothing ..so ya I'm weired :)

22. How many glasses of water a day do you drink on average?
Water ..What's that?

23. What do you drink in the morning?
Usually soda ..to wash that ass taste outta my mouth ..

24. Would you rather kiss someone with or without a tongue ring?
Umm I dunno ..Amazingly I don't think I've ever kissed somone with a tounge ring....

25. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
Yup..the right :) ..or whatever is closest to the wall ...

26. Do you know how to play poker?
No ..but if it involves being naked I'm down:)

28. Any plans for this weekend?
I can plan for sleep ...However I don't think that will happen!


29. Do you eat out or at home more often?
Home ...or at work :)

30. Would you ever get your nipples pierced?
Did it done it ...wanna do it again :)

34. Have you ever been in an ambulance?
Too many times!

35. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
POOL!

36. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat?
isle..That way when some hot guy bumps you ...You at the least get to make eye contact :) LOL!

37. Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
Umm Ya And a big lesson learning was UNDER PRESSURE!

38. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
Hores stuff , stratch tickets and anything at wal-mart!

39. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
Ya two rings ...somtimes a necklace ..Wouldn't mind a new engagement ring ..due to the fact the last one didn't fit ..then I lost the dimond ...So my finger is now naked :(

40. Do you speak any other language?
Yes ..Mandyonise!

41. Can you roll your tongue?
Depends on the occasion!


42. Who is the funniest person you know?
At the moment Shannell :) ...And my mom , I also find myself quite commical ..I'm easy to please :)

43. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
Umm..no ...A fiance ...and 50% out of the time a 5 year old and a dog..is plenty for me :)

44. What is the main ring tone on your phone?
I'm not cool ...I don't have a Cell ..but my reg phone has a cool tone :)

45. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
NO

46. What is the color of your bedroom wall?
Oooo Fun Stuff! It's ...*Drum roll please* PANELING!!!

47. Do you shut off the water when you brush your teeth?
No

48. Are you crushing on someone right now?
Huh! Any hot guy I see I'm crushing ...However I still stick to my main course ...

49. Are you currently in a relationship?
Almost 7 years ..Wow have I had my head in my ass for that long !! J/K

50. Do you currently hate someone?
Hate ..at the moment ..no ...However HATE how *Someone* had been acting for the past couple of week's !
Absolutley!!!

Ok ..First ...
I love my Job! Warm fuzzies!!
I wipe ass and crotch ...Clean up drool , slim and spit ..And I love my Job!

However home life is giving me a real headache!
At the moment ...There are 6 people livin in just my house ...Mom and chris are upstairs ...
Ok great all is goin ok there ..
However scince my sister moved in temporaraly <---however you spell that ! 
My mom has gone off the deep end ..
I don't know what is wrong with her ...but it's been going on for week's now ! 
scince I've been working ....we really haven't spent much time together ..Ok ..well I'll make time ..And when I do that I get nothing but complaint's, negative comment's ,nobody does anything right , She is getting stuck with doing EVERYTHING ..Hmmm ok ..sure you take on that responsibility ....
and yes ..this has been botherin me for quite some time now ...there is no pleasin her ..And when I or someone else tries ..again we just don't do it right ...

But last night was the icin on the cake for me !
We ..Me, Duncan, Neven, Tabby and paul get home at 10ishp.m after a full Day of great Escape 
That my wonderfull job gave me free tickets too and discounted anyone I brought with me ...
We come in the house exausted and tired me ...with a flammin sunburn!
I come in kick my shoes off and head for the nearest seat ! 
My mother was downstairs talking to my sister's babysitter ...Didn't even acknowledge me walk in the room ...Just carried on the conversation with her ....Ok fine have fun I was to tired to even comment .
"Small prologe" My sister is a stripper ..And she look's good and make's mad money at doing it !" 
so I sitting on the couch ..Neven in bed ..paul and Duncan whereever ...My sister walks into the living room ...and out of nowhere my mother says somthing to the effect of wow how do you dance with those stretch marks ...To my sister!!!
I returned with OMG that was rude ...She then said ..Well I've never seen a stripper with stretch marks and a pooch ...I was like you've got to be kidding me ...that was so rude I can't belive you said that ! 
She just laughed it off ! Grrrrrrrrrrrr
Tabby was in so much shock she didn't say anything but I know her look's and she was on the verge of tears ...she really look's up to my mother ..and for her to say somthing like that was just down right uncalled for !

Now ..Miss I do everything all the time with no help ...
I said the horses are all set right ...And she looked at me with the snide haha face and was like no ..I didn't feed them ..it was rainin when I was about to go down ..then I feel alseep ..I was like are you serious ?? 
And again with the hehehe face ..ya no ..I didn't do them ...
So now I got up in a huff with a HUGE additude and was like the one day you pick out of 2 week's not to do the nightly feed had to be tonight ..I and duncan went down to feed .

Then when we got down to the paddock a good point arose ..As it was almost to say ...if I <--my mother ..Didn't do it ..it wouldn't get done ! 
Grrrrrrrrrrr

But check this out ...
The night before ...I had gone upstairs and listened to a whole blah blah session from my mother ..and she had said there was a couple thing's she wanted to do ect ..So that morning before we left I took upon myself to do them ..one was moving the drag so she wouldn't trip over it ..and the other was putting a new bag of grain in the barrel ...

Now when I fed that morning I almost finished the rest of the bag ...common curtiousy is to replace it ..I did ...But there was still enough left in the bag to feed at least one horse ..So I crushed it down on top of the other unopened bag and left it ...
Now if she "didn't feed" everything should have been as I left it ...

Well no ..When I opened the barrel ...the crushed bag was gone ...the unopened bag was open ..And there were two empty bags layin on the picnic table ...
This too me ...made no sense ..
So I fed any way's ...Was this a test for me to figure out if she fed them ...or did someone else ..I name no names that should NOT be feeding the horses ..fed them ?????

This is just a small portion of what's been going on latley ...
I don't know what to do ..I don't know what to say ...It just seems she is out lookin for anything negative to say about anyone ..
And at this point ...and this really truly hurts to say ...because forever me and my mom have always had such a good honest relationship ..
I just ...really don't want to be around her ...for fear of her sayin somthing mean, nasty or hurtfull...
I just want the "Normal mom" back ...
But I don't know what to do to accomplish that task.
Night
Clover*

Fuckin forget it !

Any lesbian's out there lookin  fer a good time !!
Get ahold of me!
Clover

I wake up this morning ...to my Mother ...Mandy ..Mandy get up get up!!
I wake up with a screamin headache ! I'm like wtf ...So I get up and look over the banister to the back porch ..And see nothing ....So I throw a butt in my mouth and wander down to the bush of weeds/flowers everyone is swooning over ..
And Wow ain't thatta bitch I spread open the weed's and there is ...How freakin cool is that!!!
And go figure ...One ...we need more animal's here like a hole in the head ! that and Neven just brought two baby chick's home that he hatched in his class lol!
But hopefully my girlfriend will take them ..and at the least I will know where they are!

That and Neven Graduated this past friday!!! Kick ass ! I'm so proud of my little man!!
LOL and of course I have him all decked out ..and he pick's up a grossioso ! frog Eyuck! LOL , boy;s will be boy's!
I love this one ! Out of umpteen kidnargarten kids MINE has to be the only one bein a clown !! LMAO!
Tis about all for me :)
Got a cram packed day ahead of me tommorow :) So I gotta get my ass to bed!
Hey if ya wanna see Neven walk across stage and get his diploma , and the baby chick's followin mama ..go to http://s5.photobucket.com/albums/y178/Barebakrida313/The%20Everything%20album/
They should be the first two vid's that show up :)
Night all !
Clover:)!!!

So I wake up today at like the Crack of 1 0'Clock! 
Crawl outta bed ...Make it to the livin room ...Fall on the couch ...Felt like ass ...Gotta a litty tipped last night ..I Deserve it !
Well then Duncan spring's upon me we need to go to home depot and get more wood ..and go here for this and there for that ...*Yawn ..Ok ..
We leave now this is around what 1:30 ...I'm tryin to stay awake ! Cause I know when we get back home I have a list longer than D's pecker to get accomplished!
Whatever ..So we do our round's ...
Then me and my wonderful STOOOPPPID!! self ..Ask Duncan to stop at a conveint store to get me some of those caffine pill's or the 5 hour energy shots ..So he come's out with these ...
Now the fact that the pic has a feirce wolf on the front and it's a fuckin BLACK!!!! pill ...I may have taken a hint ...that it could effect me in a adverse way ...Nope cause i'm a dumb ass ...
I take 2 ...3 came in the pack ...DID I READ THE INSTRUCTION'S !!!! Nooooooooo!
*Down the hatch* and headed home ...I swear not but 5 min's !! I started to PANIC! I got EXTREMLY HOT ! My skin turned Bright red ! Then the Fun part I began to swell ! It got real hard to BREATH! Then I threw up ..This is on the way to the hosptial ! My face then went pale white!! And I felt like I was gonna pass out ! I barley could even walk into the ER I get in and couldn't stand long enough for them to even get my info! 
2 min's later I was in ! IV in my arm , Vital's done , then they switched my room pumped me up with benadril , steroids and pepcid ! 2 EKG's Oh before this then the pill decides to do what I wanted to do ! Now i'm FLYING I could not sit STILL I could have cleaned my entire house in 3 minutes!!! 
Now my nurse is telling me you have to calm down blah blah ...I'm in my bed shakin so bad i just wanted to do somthing ! AHHH!!! now they give me the drug's ...
And go figure the benadril Knocked my ass out ! I Crashed hard core ! So so much for that idea! 
Bad move for me ! 
So hence to say my day off was lovely ..We got home around 7:30 and pretty much got nothing accomplished today ..So now I'm off tommorow as well ...and what i wanted to be my easy day ..is gonna turn into a rat race Blah ! 
Other than that all is well :) 
Here's some random pics Enjoy:)

Night all !
*Clover*

OMG!!! I so know I haven't been on here in eon's! I'm sorry for all if any that follow my Journal ....!! But i'm back !! 
I don't know if I can make this short and sweet...but I'll try !

I got a job a couple week's ago ..Again ..thank you Cyan ...
I did THREE WEEK'S of orientation!! then got to go to my "House" 
I work for the OMRDD .."Office of the mentally retarded and developmently disabled" 
I love my job! ya know it suck's when someone shit's on ya , or ya gotta change someone who's "Wet" ...Ect ... But ya know 
What other Job can you go to ..and wear r OMGWTF Furries shirt and nobody cares ...
That and ..you can eat whatever you want ..take a smoke break ...if applicable when you want ...to me it's just like liveing at home with 8 more responsibilites to take care of LOL!
Plus the beni's in this job are unbelivable ! if we go on a outing with anyone "We" get our ay payed plus them ...
Then they have just "Staff Stuff" for instance ...Me , Duncan, Neven and Paul ..are going to the Great Escape on the 27th !! I'm Free and anyone I bring with me is only 25 buck's !
That's with free Lunch buffet and free parking!!
On top of that we go for week's vacation's all payed ! Some to Florida , some to foxwood's ..ECT!!
I mean c'mon now ..ya semi shitty pay ..But with all the in between's !!Ya gotta love it !!
So enough about my world!!
DUNCAN!!! Got a job ..what 2 or so week's ago ! He is now working with Asbetos removal !
As big as that sound's thougbt ...all he has to do is follow people around and test the air quatlity when they are done LOL!
And as much as he's making a HR !! Go nut's babe!!!
So in the past 2/3 weeks we really haven't seen much of eachother ...Plus for the past I dunno 4 day's i've been sick ! thank's to my lovely Co-worker!! LOL
She's awesome though ! We are very much alike in alot of aspect's ..
We are both big girl's, we both know we're   we are commn from and no matter what ..the both of us at work make a good team!!!
So all in all at the moment ..life is good :)
I sure could use a live in massuse ....but as good as my job is LOL, I don't think they would cover that LOL!

Ooooooooooooo and to all you out there that know Neven!! he will be graduating!! Kindergarten!! on the 15th !! and going into the 1st grade next year!! Go Neven!!
I'm gonna see If I can throw somthing together for him in the meantime!!
So again if ya know us ! Feel more than welcome to attend!!
I soooooooooo know this dosn't fill in for the past however long i've missed on being here!
but me , Duncan and Neven are very much alive and well!!
I should ....now that my life is slowly comming to a calm ..be here more often ..if not ya know 'm busy !!
LOL 
night all
Clover!!

The summer :)

Graphic images for you Grizz!!!

Sooner or later I will give a better update ...tis all fer now !
Night all 
Clover*

Forgive me , but this entry is directed at one and only one person !

Duncan ..Aka Crimson :)

Latley with me being back in the working world and him being "Susie Homemaker"
The role reversal made me and I do belive him ...appricate what the other has to do ...Ect ..
For example I ran the house ..he brought home the bacon ..And then did 50 million thing's when he got home ...

Now I relize how drained you are at the end of the day and how simple added responsibilites stress you out even more ...
Duncan for almost 2 week's now ...Has done regular "House chores" Plus MANhandiling the yard work and buliding movin stuff's ect !
The 1st couple day's that he played superdad ...Allthough I saw it I didn't commend it ..Cause I just figured it was a show ..Ya gotta know a little history with us to fully understand that :)

However ..now like I already said it's going on almost 2 week's now ..And without me having to say anything or my mother riding him for whatever reason ..He is just doing it ! Just random house stuff ..Then he's out in the yard ! 
Just the other day ...I walk in the door the first thing my mom said to me was WOW you need to go down to the "Shaving's/Food" shed and SEE what Duncan did ..And for my mother to get excited about somthing he did without any complaints ...is far and a few LOL!
So I go down there ..mind you this shed was blown apart ...Well he not only cleaned the shit outta it !! But built a wall , section off a end of the shed ...made a 3 tier pearch area for the chicken's ..threw down hay on the bottom to coax them to lay ! It came out soooooooooooooooooooooooo nice!!!
Belive it or not before the day was over ! there was 3 egg's in the hay !!!!

So all in all I really do have to give him a giant !!!! applause , pat on the back and a whole lotta reconition!

I am extremly happy and a modest bit proud of how he's making everything work!
*Hat's off to you Duncan*
You are a Phenomenal!! Man , Fiance, father ...and all around great guy!!
I love you baby no matter how much of a pycho I am!!!
Night all 
Clover*

So I get to add week 2 too my oreintation week ! and day 3 in my house ! 
Witch was kinda cool , Cause I didn't think I was back until oreint* was over ...
Today however was SUPER lame! 
We all were suped up to have pysical *SCIP* training today ...But that feel threw due to the fact our teacher had babysittin issue's ..And I can sooooooo understand that ...but like around 11 I was falling asleep!
But a caffeine pill and a latte kept me in the game !
So the day dragged out ...but at the least I got to come home and chill ...Paul was still here when I got home witch was cool , Cause we got to hang out for a little bit , also I commned him on helping Duncan today ! They did a kick as job across the brook with the wood pilin ect !
I could probably be addin a gadzillion thing's here ...But i'm already in bed! It's amazing how a job put's you on a schedule! 
So on that note I'm gonna hit the sack ..before I miss the wonderful sound's of thunder and lightning ! Uhh I could fall asleep to that forever! 
I'll be back soon ! 
Night all 
Clover*

I love my JOB!!!!
I absolutly love it!!!!
I work for OMRDD And the people are fantastic!!!!!
Today was my second day at my "House" And after yesterday's caios I was right with it today!!!
Last night I thought my back was gonna break and my knee's were gonna collapse ! Tonight however ...we had a couple xtra people and it went smoooooth ! To me at least :)
My boss is amazing !!! All the staff that I have met so far ! OMG you can't get a better team! 
They all have amazing personalites ! And me being the low man on the totem pole ! They made me feel unbelivably welcome!!!
Now onto my comsumer's !!! Uhhh! I love'em! Each and everyone of them ya just wanna pick up and hug'em ALL!
One of the women there ! I just I dunno I can't get enough of her ! My mary ann! And the funny thing is she drive's everyone else there nut's ! But me ..Who know's maybe I seek out the PIA"S! But she's smile's for me ! and she don't give me no shit! Today Like I said was much smoother but not to much diffrent than yesterday ...I got my fair share of pee, poop, spit and saliva ...But for me ...even with a lack for this field ..it just dosn't seem to phaze me !!! 
And so far so good on my standing! Everyone there seem's to like me:) 
As a matter of fact I over heard my boss askin a couple of my co-worker's how I was working out and they were like she's awesome , she does this that and the other thing :) !! 
So that kinda gave me a big head ! LOL! 
I am kinda bummed now ....Cause I still have 2 more week's of orientation ...So i'm not gonna be back at my "House" until I'm totally done ...So already even with just two day's under my belt I'm really gonna miss these guy's ! 
Working for these people really give's you a insight on how much they need you ...and how far the simplest thing goes ! I love it!
So again today was another long day ..I got the weekend to myself ...then monday I start my SCIP training ..Then get my med cert ! And I'm good to go!
So i'm gonna go surf for a bit and hit the happy sack ..Ma's gonna drag my ass outta bed at like 9 to start the yard sale !
So for now TATA!
See ya on the flipside!
Clover*

Ya know I really have to give myself credit !!!

1. I got into a bad car accident a couple year's ago ...and it did effect me mentally in situation's I'm not familar with ..ALBANY included!!!
However ! I had to drive there for my orientation classes! And I did!!!! ALL BY MYSELF!!!
2. Again with the driving ...But we had a 1/2 day at class today then had to go to another building And allthough I got to follow on the way there it was still diffrent and nerve rackin but again I DID IT!!!

3.In the work field I'm going into ..Working with Profoundly mentally retarded and or developmentally Disabled adult's ...There is a SHITLOAD of stuff they throw at you in a short 3 week course then put you in the field!!!
But I'm getting it i'm understanding it ! The Consumer's are amazing ! The staff is Gezz just I dunno ...whatever word you could come up with the mean's the absolute best! The class I'm in there's like 16ish people in ..and allthough some of them are a little I dunno People I normally wouldn't hang out with ...if you will ...They all kick ass ! We ALL work as a group nobody's afraid to ask question's ! We all talk , support eachother , ECT!!

So all in all everything is going really well! above and beyond! I've done alot of thing's in the past 3 day's that I never saw myself doing ! 
Tommorow is the biggie I'm at my house tommorow ! So I get to shadow all day , learn routines Ask a gadzillion question's ! And hopefully be able to help in any situation that I can :)!
The building I went to today I ran into Cyan ..Got to meet his dad ..Witch was nice ..but bad timmin I was comming off break and rushed to say hi ...But had to fly back to class ...So i didn't mean to look non-interested but ya know priorites take place ! 
Came home , Duncan was cooking dinner which is a total table turn ..But very nice ! It's kinda weird seeing somone fill my shoes ! 
That and he did a couple other thing's around the house and took care of Neven :)
I managed to get a episode and a 1/2 of CSI in before I passed out on the couch! That little 1/2 hour before Lost kinda helped ...But wow what a new diffrent routine ! And it's kinda wearin! 
So this is about all I got ! I'm gonna go play on Youtube for a little and Crash ! 
But tommorow will be nice ! I don't have to get up at stupid o'clock tommorow ! I gotta be to my "House" at 1 -9 I do belive tommorow ...So at the least it will give me some day tommorow and Friday :)!!
I'll be back tommorow!!! To tell you all how the "Real" part goes!!!
night all !!
Clover*

Ya I know I haven't been around in awhile !!! Lotta shit been going on ...However !!! 
I started my orientation to my new JOB!! on monday !!! The classess kick ass !!!! 
So far so good ! The people in my class and the teacher's are phenomanal!!!!
I could go on and on! Thank you Cyan ! thank you very much for refering me to this place!

Other topic's ...
I come across the conclusion people play me for a idiot ...Don't listen to my or any point of veiw ...Very blindsided and at least giving someone the respect to listen to what the other person has to say ECT ...I know this is vauge but it's on me mind ...
I did somthing last night I do belive that was "Sneaky" if you will ...and I guess maybe minupilative ....But in what I did I learned that this person will never ever be trusted by me again . 
Whether this person will ever know ...So be it ...I just look at it this way ..Ya you if you know me personally might see me in diffrent situation's ...However that does not construct my whole life . Please don't make assumption's ...And at the least if you do ...have the common sense to at least hear my side or point .
So I'm a little angered ,hurt and whatever other defintion I can come up with ...of this person ..Because they will never be trusted again .
I just wish if you had a problem with me ...had a issue , a curcumstance that I made you feel out of place that you would at least come to me and tell me .
Instead of me hearing about it 3 day's later from 4 other people ~
But so be it ..and as vain as this may sound ...I'm 30 year's old ...I'm done with the young immature people in my life ..and I'm not trying to sound like a asshole  but in comparison to someone who is 17 in comparison to someone who is 30 ...yes that 17 year old can be responsible mature ECT ...However ...no matter what Experience comes with age .
So ..ok ya I might leave this on a hangin note but I gotta hit the sack ! 
Night all !
Clover*